Crazy Cat Lady

I was catching up with my friend's blog and a recent post of hers struck a chord.

Being married for 16 years, having three cats, and choosing to be childless (because your husband has a disease that could kill him) you become some kind of freaks or crazy cat people.

I have had a lot of comments said to me over the years about our not having children and they're hurtful. They don't know why we don't have children and frankly, unless you're my family or a friend you need to mind your own business. Oh yeah, I'm feeling saucy.

Last night I went with Andrea to a high school rendition of Little Shop of Horrors. It was fun and better than what I was expecting. The lead parts were acted well and they could sing also! I'm happy that I went and was able to spend some time with my friend.

Andrea and I were thinking about going to another play next week called, Corpus Christi.

P.S. As a part of my update from yesterday, I've lost 25 pounds!

I hate that I haven't posted anything in quite some time. I don't want to say "it's been awhile since I last posted...". So here's an update:

I still miss my my Dad every day, the second anniversary of his passing was in March.

Making cupcakes are a joy in my life.

I have some new friends and lost some old ones. I also gained a best friend back from long ago. She is blessing to me.

I have a new niece a piece from two of my brothers! Tommy & Ashley have Alison who was born in November, and Philip & Sarah have Makenzie who was just born in March.

My relationship with God grows every day and I am grateful. Grateful to be the person I am and to have some amazing people around me.

Letter

Dad,

I wish Heaven had a phone so I could hear your voice again.

I thought of you today but that's nothing new.

I thought of you yesterday, and the days before that too.

I think of you in silence. I often speak your name.

All I have are memories and a picture in a frame.

Your memory is a keepsake from which I'll never part.

God has you in His arms...I have you in my heart.

Shepherd

I was reading my devotional this morning and the Bible verse that coincided with it was Psalm 23. Reading the psalm reminded me of when my Dad helped me to memorize it. We lived in our house on McLaren and he used the house layout to help me remember key points to learn it as a whole.

(1) The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want. (This is easy to remember.)

(2) He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. (Front lawn and kitchen.)

(3) He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name sake. (My bedroom and hallway.)

(4) Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff they comfort me. (Continue down the hallway with the lights off and Dad holding my hand. Then he lifted a belt in the closet because that is a form of discipline.)

(5) You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemy; You anoint my head with oil; my cups runs over. (Back to the kitchen.)

(6) Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (The house as a whole.)

My Dad was good at shepherding us. He was a great example of love and guidance that I so appreciate, and I will never forget Psalm 23 because he took the time to teach me in a creative way.

Always In My Heart

I don't dream about my Dad very often. For how often he pops into my waking thoughts I wonder why that is. When I do dream about him it doesn't make me sad. Although it does make me miss him and makes me wish I could talk to him like I used to.

The last dream I had of him was this- we were sitting on a couch and looking at pictures. He was laughing and pointing out things he remembered. Then he pointed to my heart.

Picture
To see a picture in your dream, symbolizes a mental imprint that remains persistent in your mind. There may be permanence in your actions. Also consider the pun on "picture this" or "seeing the big picture" in a situation.

I think my dad visited me the other night. It could have been just a remnant of a dream I don't remember, but I woke up and felt a peaceful presence watching over me. I choose to believe it was him.

Dream

As I was drifting off to sleep last night I thought I heard my Dad's voice. I thought he might have been calling. I even got up from my cozy, sleepy state because I thought it might have been real. I wanted it to be real so badly. I miss him so much.

After I fell asleep I had a dream that I was walking in a factory. There was a lot of steam and a staircase. I remember walking out of the factory to my car, but it was only the front end of it though and I had to carry it like a wheelbarrow. It was not weird to me that my car was in this condition. It was night when I was "moving" my car. The headlights were on and I ended up at a school campus "moving" my car along the sidewalk.

To have a dream that takes place at night, represents some major setbacks and obstacles in achieving your goals. There are some issues in your life that you are facing, but are not too clear. You should put the issues aside so you can clear your head and come back to it later. Alternatively, night may be synonymous with death, rebirth, reflection, and new beginnings

To dream that you are at a factory, represents repetitious thinking and an old way of doing things. It is symbolic of predictability and unchanging habits. Alternatively, it signifies business, productivity, energy and bustling activity. You are a person that can get things done.

To see or hear steam in your dream, denotes your emotional state regarding an issue or situation. You are headstrong about proceeding forth on an issue. It may also indicate that you are angry with someone or at something as in the metaphor "letting out steam". Alternatively, it signifies a new idea or some "steamy" situation.

To see a staircase in your dream, symbolizes change and transformation.

To dream that you are walking with ease, signifies a slow, but steady progress toward your goals. You are moving through life in a confident manner. Consider your destination.

To dream that you are on a campus, indicates your need to expand your thinking/knowledge and challenge yourself mentally.

To dream that you are driving a car, denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going. Overall, this dream symbol is an indication of your dependence and degree of control you have on your life.

To see or use a wheelbarrow in your dream, represents hard work, labor, and difficulties. It also symbolizes your body and the way that you are moving about through life.

To see floodlights in your dreams, symbolizes your desire to open up so that everything is in the open and understood. You need to try to shed as much light on a subject as you can.

To see light in your dream, represents illumination, clear mind, guidance, plain understanding, and insight. Light is being shed on a once cloudy situation or problem. You have found the truth to a situation or an answer to a problem. Also consider the color of the light for additional significance.

To dream that you are walking on a sidewalk, represents your steady progress and direction in life. You may be moving on to new walks of life. Your dream may suggest that you need to alter your course and make some changes in your life.