Almost An Oops

Today I had a stupid argument with my husband. It wasn't pretty. They never are. I hate crying so much that my eyes get puffy and red. It felt like my head was going to explode from the pressure. Stupid crying. Thankfully it is resolved. We love each other and I honestly can't remember the last time we argued. It didn't start off good but it ended on a better note.

In an effort to release some of my anger and frustration I logged on to my blog and opened a new post and ranted and raved (in ALL CAPS!) and almost hit "publish post". Almost. I would have been embarrassed if anyone read the crazy talk I was spewing.

It was a good idea to type out my frustrations, but next time I think I'll use a word document, then delete it.

The high today is going to be 37 degrees. (I can't believe I'm actually going to say this.) I'm excited about that. No really, I was actually almost giddy!

I will share with you the reason why I am joyous about 37 degrees... last week it was -11 and with wind-chill it was like -19. Yeah, that's why I'm freakin' giddy!

It's Harder Than I Thought

Meaning, getting into the swing of having and maintaining a blog again.

Life is life.

What I wish that could happen right at this moment is that I would magically appear on a creamy, silky sandy beach somewhere. Where there is nothing to do but wonder how many of those delectable pina coladas I have consumed. Warm turquoise water that makes you wonder how you've gone so long without experiencing it!

Far away from the dialysis clinic my husband needs to be at almost 15 hours a week. Even farther away from things that seem to consume my mind on a consistent basis. I was never a person that worried. Now it seems like I do nothing but. Aside from my fantasy of an island getaway my other wish would be not to have to worry ever again. I don't like being this way. It's so not me. But you know what? My future is out there and I will achieve a peaceful state. I will absolutely not be this way forever.

It's taken me a while but it's good to be back.